To write or not to write?

To write or not to write?

Been some time since I’ve written an “actual” post.

Why did I silence my voice?

I’ve been so wrapped up in trying to build my business, I errantly got away from the basics. How do I expect my clients to understand me if I’m not showcasing my writing?

Plain and simple…. I can’t.

I need writing. I need communication. I need contact with the outside world.

Why do we find it so hard??? Fear.

Forget Everything And Run, or Face Everything And Rise????

Let’s break each of these down…..

Forget everything…. Yeah, so I can make the same mistakes, not likely.
Run…. To me, running is a great way to expel the demons in my head for a little while. Also, running moves you forward, so why not?
Face everything…. I’m not so sure about facing everything. Sometimes its nice not having to worry about anything.
Rise…. Well who the hell doesn’t want that? This part is a little redundant to me.

Forget everything and run…. When I run, I forget everything. It is the main point of running for me, so this line irks me. It helps activate the analytical part of my brain. As a writer, I spend a lot of time using my creative side. I feel sometimes I spin out of control, and running helps balance me.

Face everything and rise…. Let me repeat this part again, we are not meant to “face” everything. When it comes to injustice, yes, face it. Hell, help abolish it, but there are some aspects of life we are not meant to face. We should just let them play out naturally, be a bystander if you will.

Seems to me either way you have to make a decision. To me, make the decision best suited for you at the time. (This last line brought to mind our last election…. choose the lesser of two evils, sometimes the choices given to us suck.)

I guess that’s it for now. See you soon, I  plan on doing more with my blog than just posting daily informational posts.

Have fun writing.


To write or not to write?

To write or not to write?

How the seasons change. The seasons of the weather, the seasons of our life, the seasons of our smiles.

I remember being able to find the beauty in everything. Now it’s just a silver lining. And sometimes its not even pretty. Its like the mask many people wear. Silver lining themselves to hide the ugly inside. Acting like princes and princesses, when they have no idea how prince and princess behave.

They have no idea of hardship, no idea of stress, no idea of connection. Letting the art die out the eyes before the color truly sets in. The story being narrated by a false god.

The irony being they are their own god, their own narrator, and they are blindly following along like sheep.

Thousands have come and gone long before us. Thousands before have tried to understand and failed.

To be forth coming about my own biases with the aim of encouraging others to explore their own ideas and opinions about a false gods, princes and princesses, and silver linings.

But there are no perfect theories to explain ANY of it.

It’s time to develop our own thoughts about how it works, and where they are going. And to further explore and express different view points. To adjust our thinking to match the new information being wrought.

To write or not to write?


Just feel like putting a few thoughts to paper. Plus I took a morphine pill and I always come up with a few crazy ideas while I’m on medication.

I just want to start by saying Thank You to everyone who is starting to enjoy the blog. It is no where anything I really want it to be, but you have to sweat, bleed, and cry sometimes to see improvements. Please stick around and by all means, HELP ME OUT!!!!!

Let me know what you want. I am here as an outlet. What I post is to raise awareness to issues close to my heart. I would love to expand my heart to some of your issues. Hell, they may already even be there, you may just have to remind me it’s in there somewhere.

As I mentioned I have cancer, testicular cancer. It’s not as bad as some cancers, but it’s still cancer. It keeps me up at night, it keeps the infected area in pain, and it scares the fuck out of me.

I was diagnosed in both testicles, but opted to only have one removed and am trying to cure it naturally. So far, so good. The last sonogram I had, the numbers increased and decreased, so the doctor told me it was probably just a misread. Fuck you, asshole.

I don’t have another sonogram until March, because of some things I have in place with the doctor, but I don’t want to hear probably. And today, the oncologist’s office called me and told me they had to reschedule my next CAT scan to March. Fuck you, asshole.

Anyway, how does any of this pertain to writing, well, it’s what’s really spurred me to sustainability and marijuana. Two major industries I would like to apply my skill sets to. Solar, wind, permaculture, and natural remedies are being subjected to lies and misinformation, and I would like to help with the change. Because lets admit it, it’s going to happen.

We are slowly going to wean ourselves off of fossil fuels, I just believe it’s my duty to help sooner and hopefully help speed up the process.

Thank you all again for the support and please don’t shy away from putting me in my place. I actually like a well thought out, heated debate.

Happy writing everyone.

To write or not to write?

Write of course.

Hello 2016.

My name is Troy. I’m 37, live in Illinois with my mother and 2 cats. I am working on my Masters Degree in Eng/Lang Lit from SNHU. I have 2 older brothers, 1 younger sister, 3 nephews, and 2 nieces. And I am a struggling self-employed writer. Not book writer, but business writer; web-pages, direct sales letters, white papers, enewsletters and blogs.

My hobbies include gardening, golfing, reading, walking/running, being outdoors, and having a good time with my family and friends. Blah, blah, blah.

I am a utilitarian moderate. I have spirituality. I claim no faith but my own, and I persecute no one for their beliefs. But I will call hypocrisy on ALL religions. Blah, blah, blah.

I am single, gay, and like everyone else am looking for someone to share my life with. Blah, blah, blah.

I have 2 DUI’s so I cannot drive, which makes it hard for me to get around and actually improve my lifestyle; like finding a part time job, because the nearest towns are 5 miles away, and  I have applied at every place hiring. All to no avail. Either I didn’t have enough experience or I was overqualified.

In the last few months, I have taken many steps to start improving my situation. I have accountability partners now helping me to push myself to do the things that need to be done. Speaking with these individuals have sparked many ideas to help me improve on many aspects of my life, not just professionally.

It’s time to stop allow the fear to keep me from committing completely and being concerned about what people think about the decisions I’m making. I thought this philosophy would have held strong after I was diagnosed with cancer, but fear is strong.

I am stronger.

I will conquer the fear keeping me from achieving the things I hold dear.

I know this post doesn’t seem appropriate for the title, but I am taking my business in a new direction, this is the first step. I am now answering honestly.

Happy writing everyone.