To write or not to write?

Write of course.

Hello 2016.

My name is Troy. I’m 37, live in Illinois with my mother and 2 cats. I am working on my Masters Degree in Eng/Lang Lit from SNHU. I have 2 older brothers, 1 younger sister, 3 nephews, and 2 nieces. And I am a struggling self-employed writer. Not book writer, but business writer; web-pages, direct sales letters, white papers, enewsletters and blogs.

My hobbies include gardening, golfing, reading, walking/running, being outdoors, and having a good time with my family and friends. Blah, blah, blah.

I am a utilitarian moderate. I have spirituality. I claim no faith but my own, and I persecute no one for their beliefs. But I will call hypocrisy on ALL religions. Blah, blah, blah.

I am single, gay, and like everyone else am looking for someone to share my life with. Blah, blah, blah.

I have 2 DUI’s so I cannot drive, which makes it hard for me to get around and actually improve my lifestyle; like finding a part time job, because the nearest towns are 5 miles away, and  I have applied at every place hiring. All to no avail. Either I didn’t have enough experience or I was overqualified.

In the last few months, I have taken many steps to start improving my situation. I have accountability partners now helping me to push myself to do the things that need to be done. Speaking with these individuals have sparked many ideas to help me improve on many aspects of my life, not just professionally.

It’s time to stop allow the fear to keep me from committing completely and being concerned about what people think about the decisions I’m making. I thought this philosophy would have held strong after I was diagnosed with cancer, but fear is strong.

I am stronger.

I will conquer the fear keeping me from achieving the things I hold dear.

I know this post doesn’t seem appropriate for the title, but I am taking my business in a new direction, this is the first step. I am now answering honestly.

Happy writing everyone.

 

To write or not to write?

It seems a long time since I have written on writing. I think its because I have started to use this site for more than just writing about writing. I have decided to start writing within the niches I hope to write copy for. I even created a schedule for which days I will be blogging about which topics. 

Sunday — school
Monday — golf
Tuesday — writing
Wednesday — gardening
Thursday — misc
Friday — running/fitness
Saturday — holiday decorating

The writing group I am in approved of my decision to branch out from my mundane rituals. Its nice to know I have the support of so many people. They assured me I will find my voice faster if I put my work out there on a daily basis.

I have many reasons for writing this blog. To find my voice is just one. Conquering my fear of people reading my work, the fear of talking about myself, and getting my work recognized are a few more. The list is long. 

I have mentioned my voice over the last few posts. It is the sole purpose most of us write in the first place. We get tired of hearing that nagging repetitious drone in our head. Writing is one way to silence it. To relieve it of its concern. To give life to it. 

The hardest critic anyone has is themselves. Nothing we ever do is good enough. At least according to ourselves. I feel this way about my writing. It has always been a source of pride and disappointment to me. I feel pride in my work, because I know how to follow the rules. And disappointment, because no one has really taught me how to break them to improve. 

I would say my biggest fear is writing about myself. Having to put personal feelings in there. I believe this is closely linked with having people read it. Even when I am in a relationship, I find it hard to discuss some things. To write about and let people read them, well, that’s enough to make me piss myself. 

Not that I am anyway ashamed of who I am, I just find the thought of talking about myself counterintuitive and a little self righteous. Most people have their own concerns to worry about, why bother with someone else’s. Then it dawned on me, maybe to get some perspective in our own lives. 

I have my blog site attached to all of my sites, professional and personal. If I refer a potential client to a site, I know at least they will be able to find my blog page. When I write in my blog, it is nothing like what I do for work. There are some aspects of writing that cross over, but there are others that are completely different. 

Recognition is a key element in the kind of writing I would like to do to get paid. Well, all writing is about recognition. For copy, it would be nice to know that my writing speaks for itself. A client is talking with someone at a convention and the other person has heard that their company has increased revenue by 110%. They ask my client how, and he says, its my copywriter. Here, let me give you his email address. Boom, another client. 

They joys of the niches I want to write for, it that there are so many companies, I won’t have to worry about crossover or interfering with any business. Most of the companies that I want to write for are geological separate, so it won’t hinder anyone’s business. 

These are my concerns and hopes.

Happy writing everyone.